Becoming a mum — and not loving it straight away

I wasn’t someone who had always planned to have kids.

I assumed I would, but it wasn’t something I had built my life around.

And I was genuinely okay with the idea that it might not happen.

What I didn’t realise was how much my life would change once it did.

The first Saturday home from hospital with my eldest hit me harder than I expected.

Everything felt different.

Gone were the long, open hours of doing whatever you felt like.

There was a baby in the house now — and everything moved around him.